Had some pretty intense spiritual attacks last night. If you don’t know what that means or want details or anything you can message me. I’m a pretty open book. Anyways, It was pretty bad and was somewhat of a wake up call. I sometimes forget how much of a threat I am to the enemy’s plans. I am so happy to be a follower of the One and only Jesus. He is great. I woke up this morning pretty confused by what had happened and prayed, but got no specific answers. I kept praying and then turned on some worship music to mellow out. It helped a ton. This song called absolutely by Starfield really touched me and I hope it can also touch you.
I enjoy friendship
but I don’t know the true definition.
This week has been crazy. I have had lots of papers and a couple midterms and I felt really overwhelmed on monday. I basically shut down and ignored everyone around me and avoided my studies and the papers that needed to be written. Wasn’t the best monday ever. I eventually went on a walk partially because it was nice out and partially because a couple years ago i was in a similar slump and Rosemarie forced me to go on a walk and it helped a lot. It’s crazy how being outside with headphones blasting enjoying nature and ignoring the world can set me free of lies.
Lies have been very prominent in my life lately. From Satan of course. Lies that no one cares for me, or loves me, or wants to be a friend to me (especially in my times of struggle). I am choosing to ignore the lies and move on. Moving on is the only option because if I do not I die. I may not actually die, but I may feel dead within my soul and that is just not me.
I love hope. Hope is so beautiful. I enjoy friendship. God has been showing me lately a lot about friendship and though I still do not know much and the learning process is painful I’m enjoying every moment of it. I have learned to let go of some and pull others closer.
I’m happier.
There is so much more, but I am so excited to sleep.
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Christian/Worship Song of the day has returned!
Today was awesome! I have found so much freedom in Jesus lately and today I got to see the world in an indescribable way. I love the Lord so much. He is truly gracious. I love this song by New York Hymns (Red Mountain Music). I got an album by them that is kind of for lent and goes through the stations of the cross. This song is for the station when Jesus falls a third time (Station 9). The album is available for free or if you’d like to make a donation thats fine too at noisetrade.com
God is so powerful and almighty. I love the Lord…….
This whole album reminds me of going to mass and singing hymns and just my whole time in catholic school. I’m really grateful to God for that time of my life. I learned a lot about him then and his loving kindness.
This post is all over the place and does not make too much sense. I am really tired (its 2am) and I just dominated at bowling so that can take a lot out of a girl .lol. I was just hanging out with Jesus before sleeping and felt like making a post. I hope it blesses you.
Here are the Lyrics by the way:
Jerusalem! my happy home!
Oh, how I long for thee!
When will my sorrows have an end?
Thy joys when shall I see?
Chorus:
Home, sweet home, my long-sought home,
My home in heav’n above.
Thy walls are all of precious stones,
Most glorious to behold!
Thy gates are richly set with pearl,
Thy streets are paved with gold.
(Chorus)
My friends, I bid you all adieu;
I leave you in God’s care;
And if I here no more see you,
Go on; I’ll meet you there.
Jesus loves you so much!
That funny Nu Thang video on youtube made me want to listen to some old school DC Talk. Here is my favorite song by them, Consume Me.
